Vacant Chapter 13 Forgive

So uttermost Ive cleaned the bathroom, the oven, the refrigerator and vacuumed twice. Its later nine and Emily politic hasnt shown up. Im starting to think that her things argon simply a mirage, or maybe she just didnt want to digest a lot of junk with her. peradventure shes staying with one of her school friends, and she didnt use up her hygiene stuff. Maybe my earlier thought active what she would need to do for money wasnt that far off the mark. Maybe shes out doing roundthing dangerous, or worse yet, something has already happened to her. theres no one just now me to know shes absent. How long do I have to wait before I turn her in as a missing person? I know she has to be missing for at least twenty-four hours, further maybe shes already been gone for a couple days. Oh, God what if shes hurt and lying somewhere. Maybe she only has minutes left and I groundworkt lose to her in eraOw I hit my head on the bottom shelf of the linen closet, cleaning the dried and cak ed shampoo from the floor when the sound of the door fabricatement startles me.Emily? I hope its her. If its not, Im going to c all told the cops and lie and tell them shes been missing for days. I hear the slapping of tennis shoes against the linoleum, then a poke on the carpet. I turn and look down the hall to condition a brown-haired beauty guinea pig down on the floor.Emily? atomic number 18 you okay? I nearly almost laugh when she looks up at me with her hair tangled in her face.Ethan, its you Its really you She scrambles the rest of the way to me on her knees, spitting her hair out of her mouth and hugging me tighter than I prat ever remember. Her smile is brighter than a sunny day at the equator. We settle on the couch, still holding on to each other. I cant count to let go. I never want to let go.Where have you been? There doesnt seem to be any anger in her tone. How could she NOT be fierce with me?Im ashamed at my answer. I drove. I didnt really go anywhere. I w as just running away, Emily. I hang my head, embarrassed that I dont even have a good reason for leaving her.I know it wont make any difference now because you probably nauseate me, but I love you too, Emily. I have sinceforever, and Im sorry I waited so long to tell you. I should have said it to you a week ago instead of running away like the coward I am. But, I cant hold back down any longer without you knowing how I feel or so you. Ive never been in love before, but Im sensibly sure this is what it feels like. I cant think somewhat anything else but you how you laugh, the way you reave your hair, the way you smell right after the shower GodSomething simoleons my rambling, something soft, warm and moist. Emilys lips atomic number 18 on mine and her arms are draped around my neck. Shes kissing me, and I dont ever want her to stop.Her mouth on mine is awesome And I think about other things I want her to do with her mouth.While there are a speed of light synonyms for how k issing Emily feels, the only thing in my head the at the meaning is woo-hoo. If I really think about what is actually happening, Ill make her stop. This is amiss(p) not the kissing part, but the part where shes willing to forgive all my sins and just withdraw me back without a second thought. Now that Im thought about itDamn it Now Im mad. I pull away fleck her lips linger. Emily, I sigh, not really knowing where to start. We have to talk about this, I motion between us. She nods begrudgingly. Its written all over her face she thinks Im going to reject her again.Look, I pull her chin up so her eyes meet mine, nothing will change my feelings for you. They havent changed in the buy the farm few years, and they wont change in the next few, either. What I have to know, though, is how you are feeling.She starts shaking her head, telling me not to worry, but thats precisely the problem. She should be angry with me.Emily, you should be upset with me. Yell, scream, hit anything to l et me know how you feel Im almost shouting near the end of my declaration. I pull back and get myself in check before I completely lose it.Relieved.What? Its a stupid question because I heard perfectly well what she said. Its a stall tactic on my part.Im relieved, Ethan.Why arent you-Do you know how legion(predicate) people there have been in my life who I cared about or who cared about me?Im pretty sure I know the answer. Im hoping its two, but know for sure its one her mother but Im always deliberate not to bring up LouAnne. I just squeeze her hand, which Im still holding onto like the piece of wood Leonardo DiCaprio was holding onto after his exit from the Titanic.Two, Ethan. Two.Now Im relieved.And one of them cant ever come back, but you did. You came back and I dont care where you went or what you did. You are here now, safe.The tremble in her voice as she says, what you did, tells me shes a little scared of what or who I might have done, so I hope Im about to project he r fears to rest.I just drove and slept in my car. I ate a few times, but honestly, Emily, the only thing I did was think about you and how untold you mean to me. I was an asshole for leaving you. I didnt take your safety or well-being into account and for that, Im sorry. You should be upset with me.I was scared, Ethan. At first, I thought maybe you were just blowing off some steam, off figuring out a way to tell me to leave, but when you didnt come home that first night or the next morning, I started to get worried. Then Margie came by and said you hadnt shown up for work.So, this is how Margie knows about Emily.I wasnt really sure how much she knew, but I could tell she was surprise to find me here. She was so nice though. I told her how highly you speak of her and how much we appreciated the deal she and her husband gave on the car. Then I upset myself for a little bit and told her about you surprising me and taking me to graduation. Emily pauses and smiles, then looks down as i f shes a little embarrassed.It was nice to have a woman to talk to again. It reminded me a little of my mom.Emily continues to tell me about Margie feeler to the house. She said she cried for a little bit because she didnt know what to do, that shed been relying on me for so long. She didnt know what she would do if I didnt come home. She also tells me how Margie asked her about a job and what she liked to do. It seems they went to the public library and Emily applied for a position. She can work there part-time and still go to school. Apparently, she works until oddment and thats why she came home so late. Margie also got her a bus give out and rode with her the first time to make sure it was safe.There isnt a fragrance of flowers big enough for Margie right now.